It was a year ago that I had my first ever WHITE CHRISTMAS!!! Last year the snow kept us home and we couldn’t, for the first time I think EVER, make it to my Granny’s house for Christmas. I lost my “Mamaw” when I was 13 and until then it was Dad taking us for lunch with Mamaw while mom stayed home and cooked and then we headed home, loaded up and hit “Pappy’s” for dinner. After Mamaw passed it was spending the day at “Pappy’s” and all the Aunt’s and Cousins. I would always think to myself as we made the 30 minute drive “over the river and through the woods to Grandmother’s house we go” and a part of me missed my Mamaw too… her little beanie clad head, her sweat suits, the rolls of quarters loosed in an envelope and sealed with our names on them, and of course that prickly Cedar tree she’d have one of her boys go out in the woods and cut down. That was Christmas. Nothing fancy, just precious!
This year we lost Pappy on the 20th of October, and I had an amazing dream last night that had her in it with me. It was so real, something I long for more than anything in the world, and SHE WAS THERE too! I FELT her! Needless to say when I woke up and realized it was merely a dream I was shattered. I miss that woman! She’ll never be physically WITH me anymore. I miss her cooking, her little elf shoes, that tree and tinsel, the Christmas bandanas she’d dress Spicy in…everything! This year it’s just not the same, and to beat it all it’s rather warm out for a December…and sunny! A stark, and unwanted contrast, for me anyways, to the beauty that fell last year and covered my little corner of the world in a blanket of pure white…just like what Jesus did when He stepped down from Heaven. A sweet reminder, but bittersweet at best.
So, this year, a little like last, it’s dinner here at the house with my mom, dad, and little brother with the older bro and his fam coming over later. I’m thankful I still have them but I miss my Granny, my extended family, the baby cousins, everyone…but Christmas in Pappy’s house just would be too much to take without her there. I’m thankful to just remember the Christmases past instead of trying to forge new ones in the place that she made her home…without her.
I ask everyone this Christmas to hug their families a little tighter and be thankful for one more year of memories…they may not be there next year…and trust me, it hurts. That is my Christmas wish for you all…to love on them just a little longer than normal and thank the Lord they’re here.
I shall leave you with my favorite Christmas ever… the SNOWY CHRISTmas of 2010. It was so beautiful it deserves to be resurrected a year later.
Merry Christmas to you all, and a blessed New Year to you and yours.
Love and belief,
A Merry Snowy CHRISTmas 2010
I didn’t go to bed until 5am this morning…for real! I just. couldn’t. sleep! There was NOTHING happening when I went to bed….oh yes, I checked! But at 8am when I woke up for some inexplicable reason there was no grass in sight….just a BEAUTIFUL BEAUTIFUL B.E.A.UTIFUL Blanket of white!! I honestly CANNOT remember a true white Christmas in all my 27.5 years upon this Earth, and today….it happened! BEST. CHRISTMAS. PRESENT. EVER!!!! Goodness, I knew Jesus loved me, I mean He did after all give up Heaven to come here over 2000+ years ago, but WOW!!! 3.5″ and still coming down!!! I’m praying for 5 or 6…or more…and that it sticks around a few days! What a WONDERFUL Christmas! I just wrote a blog the other day, and attached a picture of a SNOWFLAKE I took…yeah…a real SNOWFLAKE, about why I LOVE Snow so much….if you’re interested in that too then visit “The Snowflake Portrait” if you wish!
My grandmother cancelled our Christmas dinner about an hour ago, which is a bit of a blessing because to begin with I had no idea how we were going to get my wheelchair bound mother, whom I lovingly refer to as “Gimpy” now, out of the house…since we found out the other day when she and I ventured to town that it’s painful as all get out for her on crutches! So, my amazing Greek Vinaigrette Lemon Pepper Chicken, Baked Ham, Sausage Balls, and Green Beans I have made to take to her house shall be eaten in our own little dinner….here at home!
You all should know by now my camera is permanently attached to my hand, so without further adieu here’s some of the beauties I shot 1st thing this morning…flip flops and all! You know how I roll when snow’s involved…whatever is handy! 🙂
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